Happy Birthday Goddess

The Moment it Happened

http://glamourdomme.blogspot.com/2011/10/loser-4-ever-and-his-1st-cock.html

at mistresses request

Mistresses total destruction of my "cock"

I dont think this needs words....but... i said i would do anything to amuse Mistress...and she said... she wanted to break my worm so i couldnt even get hard.... this was just the start of a night of cbt











....my upside down tided "penis" was a particular favourite of hers!

A Place to Worship our Goddess

http://goddesshellen.forummotion.com/

please join.... please join in discussion...and worship :D

Testicular Destruction

Video Diary - Day 3

For the readers of Mistress Hellens blog, you will of seen quite a few videos of me appearing since she has locked me up in chastity.... Its cause she is showing how weak and desperate i am....or in her words TOTAL LOSER FAT PIGGY UGLY CUNT with NO CHANCE TO CUM

Heres one she asked me to post, attaching pegs to my balls, ripping them off, causing blood, a mouse trap and then put in a dvd case and crushed.....after applying heat cream, enjoy, I know she did x

Mistress got Her way

These photos say it all.... not only would i never cum without Mistresses permission...now i cant... day 1 and alreay not being able to get hard is killing me :(

Interrogation Game.... Equals one huge mistake of a game against Mistress

Tonight I concede that i lost our game Mistress.... a interrogation game of Mistress doing anything she could to find out a word i had wrote down.

Mistress dressed in my favourite clothes said i would not see her unless i told her how many letters I had in my secret word.... SIX i cried...

Then as my phone numbers appeared on Goddess's blog, the first letter was hers....

I then lasted through the pain of heavy weights tied to my balls, Heat cream on cock and balls, tease and denial.... I thought i was going to win!....

As Mistress loaded up facebook to start adding my friends...I gave the 2nd and 3rd letters...

Mistress, had now guessed the word.... but she was having to much fun toying with me... i was then teased with her pantyhosed legs... as i begged to touch my worm.... letter 4 was given to touch...i was so desperate...

Finally I was 4 minutes away from winning a orgasm, looking at my Mistress for the very first time (5 years!).... could i hold on...

Could I resist this....

Of course i couldnt...but i was going to try.......

Mistress smiled "guess what i am doing".... i paniced, on my knees before my goddess with my hands on my head desperate to touch my rock hard tiny cock....

"looking through your pictures"... then i realised... my face, phone number, address ...everything was about to be published.... I cried out the word, i begged...

Mistress was unhappy with this though, i had resisted for a short while..which is disobeying... the blog update would stay there until i bought a chastity belt... I bought one in a bout 2 mins...

Thank You for playing with me Mistress, Your favourite toy and number oen loser :D

Cock Sucking....Get Your Cocksucking here

My Mistress is now advertising me as a cock sucker or her blog...

with my phone number ........07840522409

my email......slavetinicock@yahoo.com

and pictures of my lips covered in lipstick.... a video of me sucking a dildo best i can and even a smoking session...

I am now longer even allowed to edge over my Mistress, i am only allowed to touch the worm when Mistress says and i MUST be looking at real cocks when i do... all part of the brainwashing to make me love cocks more and more..... so i WILL love YOUR cock...

http://glamourdomme.blogspot.com/2011/02/cock-sucker-adevertising.html

contact me for sucky

one week BANNED from touching the worm

... the consequence if i even ask Mistress if i may edge.... IGNORED FULLY FOR ONE WEEK

THIS IS HELL

Mistress also recently put me thru this....

This is a smiley face of heat cream before detroying the worm and balls
This is a shot of Mistresses ash and cigs, toilet water, spit, fresh pre cum, vodka and 6 month old pre cum....
These are the pills that after i take i cant get hard.... Mistress made me take 5 before teasing me :(

p.s. I NEED A WILLING MAN TO ALLOW ME TO SUCK HIS COCK TO AMUSE MY MISTRESS please email me to apply slavetinicock@yahoo.co.uk

Cock Sucker for Free....

contact me : slavetinicock@yahoo.com

Based : Newcastle, United Kingdom

Will suck any cocks for free, only condition is that my Mistress must see, either a video or live webcam.

Turning my Dreams to Nightmares

Tonight Mistress put me through hell, to get me close to one of my dreams.... then turned it into a NIGHTMARE!

Mistress, and most other people know i LOVE hose and heels. A while a go i sent Mistress some high heels and very dark hose. Mistress rarely allowed me to see them and told me everytime a real man or worthy cocked slave was allowed to cum while seeing them....

I also have not had an orgasm looking at Mistress for coming up to one year.

In real world i love Manchester United.... followers of Mistresses blog will see when she made me destroy my jersey and start following Manchester City.

Well, Tonight... Mistress said i may cum looking at her in hose and heels....a real orgasm.... IF Manchester City won... i had to support them... also, Goddess said if Man U won i would have to destroy the hose and stockings she has sent me!!!

In the first half i was made to apply heat rub to my "penis", knowing as worm, and balls and nipples.... once it was burning i had to use heat spray and then I was made to edge through out the whole second half of the game....Mistress then put on the hose... and told me how worthless and cheap they were ... she didnt want them anymore....

the results are here :

The game was then a draw 0-0 .... Mistress said i had won NOTHING, through my beloved hose in the bin and dismissed me :( burning, hard and dirty covered in cum!

GODDESS I LOVE YOU FOR TREATING ME IN THIS WAY

in the next blog, I will tell you the most humiliating story.... my new diet!

My "Gift" from Mistress

Mistress has recently posted me some items which i eagerly await:

Some of her beautiful cigerette butts, a packet of her ash... for my food

A condom full of Mistresses spit.... for me to drink

Dirt and chewing gum removed from Mistresses shoes.... as desert

But to get these gifts from my Goddess i have had to endure so much humiliation from her, which i loved every minute.... the worst was when Mistress controlled my pc... exited a session with her... and entered one with a fat, old, hairy tiny cocked man... i then had to beg and plead and agree to BUY a condom of his cum!!! ... if i didnt do this... Mistress would A: punish me & B: not let me have my gifts.

If i am lucky and have been very good... Mistress said there will be hose in my package.

i Can't imagine what i will have to do with these things... when i have a condom of old mans spunk and a identical condom of Mistresses devine spit infront of me....

I look forward to pleasing my Goddess more :)

.... how could i say no to a view like this....

Cock Destruction

Wednesday Night, due to the agreement of our contract, I had to confess to Mistress that I got a hard on looking at one of her pics...

Not only am i not allowed to cum, but.... no hard ons "there for real men"

Mistress decided to treat the worm so badly that it wouldn't get hard again, at least that night.

Torture 1# Heat spray all around the head of the worm, pulling the foreskin back and spraying it on.

Torture 2# Mouse Trap on the end sealing the little thing shut.

Torture 3# Clothes pegs all over the worm and balls

Torture 4# Hair dryer on full ...close enough to blow the pegs off :(

...Mistress videoed this for her blog... but it didnt save :( so she made me do it again :(

When all this was done, my worm was burning but semi hard serving Mistress,so, she decided to use fate against me. Knowing I have some pills which make me impotent... she rolled a dice and i had to take this many of the pills....6!!!

a few hours later, when she made me listen to her allowing real men orgasms, and serving her sluts by asking to lick there cocks... she made me "try" and wank my flaccid cock... looking at only cocks of course! ... i could not get hard.... Here are the results :( ...

Daytime humiliation

Today Mistress was around early, so my day is to be controlled by her...

1st thing i had to do was these pictures for her amusement of me licking clean a toilet seat... then wiping ass with the toilet brush... and then cleaning teeth with it :(

my homework from Mistress.

How i want to suck YOUR cock for Mistress Hellen’s amusement by loser4ever

Goddess Hellen has trained me to be her loser fag cock sucking whore. I now will not gag, my teeth don’t get near your real man cocks and you can cum anywhere, including over my man boobs or where ever you choose.

First I will apply a slutty amount of bright red lipstick all over my lips, I will then make sure they are wet for running up and down your cock.

When I am in front of you, I will be on my knees in a selection of sissy panties for you.

I will rub your man cock thru your trousers first, and kiss it to make it hard. You at this point may want to open your trouser and rape my face as fast as you like, if you let me continue I will slowly unzip you. If you want to slap me or spit in my face Mistress also finds this acceptable.

I will then lick up and down your naked throbbing cock, down the shaft and then kissing your balls, licking your balls and sucking them.

I will then place your member in my mouth and slowly rub my lips and tongue down your cock, being sure to look up into your eyes as i do it, like a true slut.

I will then speed up and massage your balls as i do, you can control the speed of this by grabbing my stupid hair and really going for it. For the excited males, my ears would make could handles as you rape my face hole.

I will then start to deep throat your cock, up and down then moving away to lick the tip of your cock, licking it as fast as i can, dreaming of when i was allowed to lick a clit like this.

While licking your huge member I will wank you as i do, then back to the sucking. Getting faster and faster as i go, As i feel you getting excited I will moan like the little whore bitch i am. Begging you to cum.

This is where you get to to choose. You could spunk in my mouth and make me gargle it. You could pull out and spunk right in my face – all over it- your hot creamy load that i am not allowed to produce. Or you may choose to cum on my man boobs, calling me a bitch as you do it. Or really humiliatingly in my hair.

I only hope those who choose to use my face as there slutty fuck hole, choose not to bring a woman as audience to humiliate me further.

After you have cum you will NOT be charged. You will NOT be expected to stay for idle chat. You will NOT be expected to exchange numbers. You will NOT be expected to help clean up your man juices as i will be made to sit covered in cum, like the dirty slut i am.

http://glamourdomme.blogspot.com/2010/07/loser-amusing-real-men.html

http://glamourdomme.blogspot.com/2010/07/loser-and-wall.html

CUM SUCKER

Mistress has turned me into a cum guzzling whore, I ve been trained on a dildo, and now i ve licked up a real mans cum that Mistress sent to me....







Now SHE wants me to find a real cock to suck on, please apply directly to her for me to suck your cock....

Thank You Mistress

The First Four Pics are off her stocking covered in cum, or me licking it clean... before destroying it for her so I couldnt be dirty with it :(

The last is my tiny useless worm in panties and incased in a bag of ice! :(

Also top right I was putting dates of when Mistress allowed me to cum... I have not updated in ages... that date is the same! :(

my Xmas Gift From Mistress

Today i recieved a package from my Goddess ... Her pantyhose that she teases me in.... after she made her BF cum all over them a few times...

I text her and now i have to wait for her to come online later... so her and her sister and friends can laugh at me licking and sucking a real mans cum from her tights!... while i get excited at touching her hose... It is hurting to wait... so I suppose... i am desperatly waiting to suck up and clean cum!

Mistress... this is the best gift ever! x

loser

Humiliation & Mental abuse!

This Picture Speaks For Its Self.... Mistress after a Night of abusing me... teasing me... degrading me... even using other slaves and men to put me down... I was not allowed to touch my worm (NOT EVEN EDGE!!)

Mistress even made me eat my dinner from the floor... then get some ice cream... pour it out the bowl and lick it up... the last of the ice cream i had to lick from my toilet seat!!! ... while Mistress took photos (laughing) and showed her sister and other slaves to amuse herself and them!... she even made me show I gave a better blowjob than a sissy slave of hers!!

Mistress later buzzed me on yahoo to join her and I would be allowed to sacrafice seeing her to touch my tiny worm!... she covered her cam and laughed while i stroked seeing (what Mistress describes me as....) NOTHING... when i was close to edging... Mistress uncovered her camera... give me the middle finger and walked away laughing... all the while i was putting $$$ into her account. Mistress even informed me, as i bought her shoes and pantyhose for her birthday, ones i loved the look of for her... she would not EVER let me see them on her and infact would let even more men pleasure themselves while entertaining her... while i wont even see them... BUT i do get something... a worn, dirty pair of pantyhose have been posted to me... after she had a real man pleasure himself on them for me to lick clean.... I am so weak i am excited just to touch and smell them

I THANK MISTRESS FOR THE HONOUR OF SERVING HER EVERY DAY... BEING HER FAVORITE LOSER AND FOR EVERYTHING SHE ALLOWS ME TO DO TO AMUSE HER.

Mistress Later Informed me i will be text messaged daily to take a humiliating picture while i am at work or home... or whenever Mistress demands....

For Xmas... I WILL be allowed a orgasm from my tiny bent worthless cock... however the conditions are I MUST BE ON CAM WITH MISTRESS ON 25th DECEMBER (i doubt she will be:( ) and the second condition is which xmas Goddess decides ... 2009,2010,2011 :((

Thank You Mistress

At Last!

Finally tonight I was allowed to cum... although under some humiliating conditions... after over 2 months of total denial, without even pre cumming... Mistress allowed me to wank.

After being teased & denied, humiliated and degraded infront of Mistress, Mistresses Sister and Friends... i was allowed to return for more... to be allowed to cum.

The condition was i had to do it upside down with my legs over my head... so when i cum... it went in my face... mouth... eyes.. and hair :( while Mistress, her sister and friends laughed at me. Afterwards I showed a close up of my face covered in my spilt filth... when Mistress informed me i may not wash until the morning :((

Remember Remember the Fifth of November - Play with Mistress you get burnt

Mistress has made me do this blog, with a few pics for everyone elses amusement.

The 1st Pic is Mistress in her element... asking people to really humiliate me... the 2nd is Mistress showing what she thinks of me, stamping on her rubbish!

The 3rd Pic of the man sucking the other man... thats what Mistress allows me to wank over (p.s. without cumming... i have not cum since 15th September!!!)

The 4th Picture ... the cock between Mistresses perfect legs... that is my heaven.. but i have to admit here that I would enjoy licking a real cock if it were there... to be so close to Mistresses perfect legs and stockings... AND THAT I WOULD DO ANYTHING TO AMUSE HER

Mistress makes me edge over this pic often... also pics of her sissy in stockings on her blog!

If Mistress let me sniff her stockings... I would be in euphoria! HEAVEN

Month Of HELL

Mistress has made me make this post to amuse her... as i have not updated for a while... this is just a quick snapshot post of my last few weeks without much detail.

Firstly, I still have not been permitted a orgasm... or even a ruined orgasm or any release of any kind!

Secondly, in the last month, I am now being mailed very often by gay men from all over the world... after Mistress created a gay singles dating account for me and emailed all the local gay men on there - here are some of their replys :

"yes sure suck it.... if want this is my mobile number +0**********"

"Hi would love you to suck me off anytime you want. Wher eabts are you I hope you are near to me i'm in ********** Ron"

Thirdly, after weeks and weeks of being made to serve Mistress every night - i have become poor and cant continue to please Mistress as much as i have been (at least for a week).... because she has taken so much (she deserves it)... IT IS SHEER AGONY being away from Mistress.

And Lastly, Mistress said I had to add this picture ... so if anyone wanted to abuse or use me they could....

Mistress is my life she is now controlling everything, my orgasms, my money, when i eat (often, she wants me as fat as possible), when i drink alcohol... everything... and i love her for it

loser4ever

Still No Orgasm :(

Mistress now hasnt allowed mt to cum for 12 days... and after being made to cum so often it hurts so bad.... and mistress has put me thru so much excitement....

I am excited to serve her later on tonight.... i hope she takes pity and allows me a little worm spillage?!

My Cum Holiday - Blog at Demand of Mistress

Places Mistress MADE me Cum..... in order...
1. Over my pillow
2... make pillow even dirtyer
3........ more pillow filth
4. My Mobile Phone
5. on all my cd's
6. Over my mobile phone
7. Over my laptop keyboard
8. on my bed
9. on a champagne bottle covered in deep heat... which i then had to put in ass
10. on my wall
11. on floor... and mop clean with my face
12. in my hair gel
13. My best/most expensive shirt... by humping it on floor
14. over work toilet seat
15. on my toothbrush... then clean my teeth

This blog is at request of Mistress, she encourages you to look at her site and what she reduced me to http://glamourdomme.blogspot.com/ ... also guess how many of these i have been allowed to clean :(

I thank Mistress for my 4 day cum holiday... and hope she does not keep my orgasm ban up for as long as last time

A Good News Bad News Day

Mistress gave me the tasks to do and send her to photos .... I did... shaking scared incase anybody walked in and caught me...

I then had to go show her on cam while i sent them to her... she raped my bank account until i had nothing left till i next get paid... at $6 a minute... she then proceeded to let me wank looking at her in stockings (my favorites)... when i was about to cum... she decieded I should do it on my tooth brush :( .... so i left to go get it... all the time she was telling other slaves and real men what she had me doing ... when i was about to cum, i begged and pleaded... she covered her webcam ( I AM NOT ALLOWED TO CUM LOOKING AT HER) which hurt cause i knew she was there in stockings and heels laughing at me... when i cum it had to be on my tooth brush... i then had to brush my teeth with it. I was harshly humiliated and degraded.... which contiuned after i had orgasmed... which is hard to continue doing !

Mistress later informed me she had a real man saying he wanted me to suck his cock.

Mistress also made me wank again over her stockings again... but this time only edge...

MISTRESS THEN INFORMED ME... THAT WAS MY LAST ORGASM... MY CUM HOLIDAY IS OVER... this was the bad news! the earlier stuff was the good news!

Thank you for controlling the filthy worm Mistress

Your piggy boy loser4ever slave ugly cunt

A loser Weekend infront of Mistress

this weekend... I was not permitted to leave my house by Mistress, while other people in UK were enjoying sun and outdoors... I was sat on my pc... awaiting Mistresses instructions.

What a humiliating weekend it was, still being allowed to cum... Mistress had instructed me to cum in some more humiliating places... on my bed sheets, on my wall, on a champagne bottle that was covered in deep heat rub... which was then inserted in my ass... thats right a cum filled burnt fat piggy ass for Mistresses amusement. This weekend i have also had to whip my cock till it bruised for Mistress, do a strip show on cam, make a video of me practicing sucking cock ready for my 1st time to amuse her.... hope i am not forgetting anything... oh and also join a gay dating site (i am straight) and give her the username and password... so that she can make me do whatever she finds amusing... all the while being made to drink shots of tequilla and glasses of booze.... at least no special pills to soften me up this time.... all the while she degraded me with insults like 'thick ugly cunt', 'fat ugly pig' and 'you fucking queer homo puff!'

Mistress knows she can make me do anything, and confirms i am her weakest most addicted slave... and she knows my biggest weakness is seeing her perfect stunning beautiful legs in stockings or pantyhose... the photo above is as close as i got... the dirty stain on them (how i wish it was my cum, or even a real mans to suck clean for Mistress) is her spit as thats the best she will ever allow me in her presence.

look closley at this one... i am aroused and have measured out centremetres on the paper

Thank You Mistress For My Humiliation and Making me type this Blog

All 4 Mi$tre$$

I post all of these to amuse Mistress...









She has recently started allowing me to cum... over and over... and where ever she tells me...












So Far ive had to cum on my mobile phone, on my laptop, on my cd collection and a few times on my pillows... and i ve not been allowed to change the pillow case... sorry If I have forgot any where Mistress.










Mistress is allowing me to cum for a un-defined ammount of time... so I will become addicted to it... and then ... she is going to take away orgasms again :( Goddess only knows how many orgasms I have left... or where they are going to be ???







Until next time
loser4ever

Loser Slave

Any one that has served Mistress Hellen has probably seen her blog.. and photos of me.. that Mistress makes me take..

She decieded I should have my own, so everyone can see how weak i am...

People have commented what has she done to me to do this...

Well thru 3 years of tease and denial and my addiction to Mistress perfectness, there is not much i will now not do :(

Herei will add some pics she has made me take- this will be my blog to my addiction to her, BUT will be what ever she wants me to put here.

loser4ever